I can’t seem to get back into the groove of it. I have several works in progress, some of them near complete, and every time I open one of them I just sit there staring at it. Why? What is wrong with me? I know I can write. I have two already published. I got great reviews. So what is stopping me third time around?
I’m pretty sure of the answer, actually. But I want to put it down here on my own blog, where I can see it clearly in black and white (well, technically white on purple) and hopefully, I can face it more directly that way.
Fear. Fear of failure. Fear of having “lost it”. Fear that this time around, I’ll get a rejection and everyone will know I just fluked it before. But that’s what the second one was for, wasn’t it? To prove to everyone (make that, myself) that it wasn’t just a one-off. And truth be told, I liked Pandora’s Gift even more than Seducing Serena. (Is it okay for an author to have a favourite book? Seems kind of disloyal to my firstborn, Serena, but I love her too not least because she was my first!). Its just that the writing seemed to flow much more easily the second time. It felt right.
But I stopped writing for a bit. Worked a day job, ran an internet business at night, ran teenage kids around all over the place, sold a house, moved, got sick, got better, got sick again. Hmm. Well. Now that I’m finally on the mend, the business is sold, the house is unpacked and the kids’ activities are relatively under control, I’m gonna give myself a piece of advice:
If you’re a writer, you write. Only 500 words at a time if thats what it takes to make it achievable. When, and only when, the story is finished, you edit. Then you think about submitting and all the emotional angst that comes with it. Not before. For today, just write, damn it!
I’m going to print that last sentence out and put it on the cork board above my computer. Hope it works!
Jennifer Lynne writes erotic romance and is published by Red Sage. Her first novella, Seducing Serena, appeared in the popular Secrets anthology (Secrets Volume 28 Sensual Cravings). Her second, Pandora’s Gift, is available as an e-book from Red Sage.